Pushin' it

Im feeling kind of stagnant and there is only one thing to do when you feel that way. 

Change everything.

Might take a mini leave of absence from my normal activities so that i can reset and just do other stuff for a little while, completely change up the style of my photos, or just not talk to anyone for a few days. Something to get me into a new mode, a new vibe, something i can bring to the people i'm close to. 

So im gonna push the boundaries and push out of the little boredom/doldrums  that i am in.

I have a few good things coming my way right now and a few ideas im about to start in motion so im feeling extremely positive about the future. And every day im trying to push closer to that positive and push out the negative that keeps me from realizing my potential. Parts of my self like my laziness and inability to write down gals, while i sit and tell people how to do it for hemselves and boost others up i have been neglecting myself and falling behind. So im pushing that to the side to put myslf where i need to be, so instead of pushing people up i can pull them up with me if i want them on top.

is kanye the new generations Michael Jackson

I know all my friends who are super in love with MJ will probably think this is blasphemy but hear me out before you try to kill me jb and d ro.

The reason i pose this question isn't because they both have crazy concert with wild performances, ye has a long way to go to catch mj, i mean he aint jamming in Bucharest, and i have yet to see anyone fall out hen yeezy walked into a room, unless they had a camera and he was yanking it from their hands.

But what im saying is he is a person we have watched grow into a super crazy celebrity, and he is seemingly falling aart in front of our eyes. I mean he hasn't shaved his nose of to the point that he looked like a scary ass cartoon character. He also hasn't caught some disease that morphed him into a middle aged white woman.

But what he has done is made a prolific and very personal album that most people hated, while he was at his most vulnerable. Full of off pitched singing auto tuned into bearability, then he tried to perform it, like he didn't know he couldn't. Now he is just starting to look way too sensitive and i just don't know what's next he is stealing  Michael's dance moves

He has some kinda crazy negro mullet shag thing going on.

Im just not ready to see a light skin noseless version of mr west.  

a blog non analogous

I typically write about one thing, thinking about something else.

But right now all i can think about is cookies.

The soft ones with the frosting.

With those little sprinkles.

I love them.

I have them with in arms reach.

Rather than get them, I decided i would be better off just thinking about them.

How much I want them. 

How sweet it would be.

Because i know this is the wrong time to consume them.

In the end i am better off with out the cookies.

But I still love them.

i heard 'em say

If you can't change your surroundings, change your surroundings.

Be it people, your environment, living situation, life...

So in that vain maybe i should stop trying to influence the people around me. Maybe i should give up on bringing people into a different experience or informing them that people with different opinions, and life experience can also be correct, since truth is mostly a matter of opinions based on life experience and perceptions. Even science acknowledges that, only math has laws that stay the same for extended periods. 

So since i cant shift the things around me, why not move. Why not move on, reset, find like minded individuals who like to do what i like to do?

cause im a dumb ass and i think u can change anything if u decide its important

get on or get out the way

Right now i feel like my life is analogous to merging into the highway. I know where im tryna go. I just dont know where all the people around me are headed, or if they are even paying attention and see me. 

I can either slow down and make sure they know where I'm going, or I can speed up and hope I dont crash. I am usually the cautious type.  Lately though, I have been far more reckless. Merging blindly and holding the accelerator. Making up for lost time i spent waiting for my chance to merge.

But right now, at this moment, its 5:15pm and i am getting on 635 in Dallas. Traffic is fucked up. No ones looking over, and if they do they speeding up to make sure they are ahead of me. And im not even sure i am going in the right direction. Seems like the faster i go the further i get from my destination, but if i wait i won't get there any sooner. Maybe i should switch directions or take the side road, avoid all the traffic and find a new way to the place i want to be?

It's either that or press the gas raise the finger between my index and ring, and cause a wreck.

changes

Change...

It's not just for the white house anymore. 

It seems change is my new frienemy. It constantly works its way back into my life no matter how many times I push it away or it pushes me away. No matter how sick of each other we get, i can always count on change, even if its different every-time we meet.

Sometimes she I so sweet and other days she is a bitter bitch, getting back at me for all the past rejections she suffered. But I take her back every time cause i have no choice, she is change, she always gets her way.

Right now I'm just working on ways to influence her. Get her to see things my way. Maybe set up a orgy with her home girls Fate and Success. But for now i'll just wait for her to decide what is next.

-c

dont drink and type

It has been a while since i was inclined to speak to the viewers of this blog, but i feel that i have come to a point t hat i have to. Solely for the purpose of extending this sage advice to you, dont drink and type.

Be it text, im, blog myspace message, mavis beacon teaches typing program.. whatever, just dont do it. its bad. The main reason its bad is because you dont know what the hell is going to come out next, i mean you are inebriated. Another reason is you wil say exactly what you are thinking even if its something you not supposed to say.  But the most important reason is, there is evidence lol, written evidence of you saying some old super drunky shit, you dont wanna be the text version of dude from entertainment tonight or dill o reily and end up with your bizness in the streets. After all what you do with loofas is your own business, even if you are a self righteous right wing conservative. Back to the point though... just dont do it its a trap...

just a drunk nigga psa