a blog non analogous

I typically write about one thing, thinking about something else.

But right now all i can think about is cookies.

The soft ones with the frosting.

With those little sprinkles.

I love them.

I have them with in arms reach.

Rather than get them, I decided i would be better off just thinking about them.

How much I want them. 

How sweet it would be.

Because i know this is the wrong time to consume them.

In the end i am better off with out the cookies.

But I still love them.

i heard 'em say

If you can't change your surroundings, change your surroundings.

Be it people, your environment, living situation, life...

So in that vain maybe i should stop trying to influence the people around me. Maybe i should give up on bringing people into a different experience or informing them that people with different opinions, and life experience can also be correct, since truth is mostly a matter of opinions based on life experience and perceptions. Even science acknowledges that, only math has laws that stay the same for extended periods. 

So since i cant shift the things around me, why not move. Why not move on, reset, find like minded individuals who like to do what i like to do?

cause im a dumb ass and i think u can change anything if u decide its important

get on or get out the way

Right now i feel like my life is analogous to merging into the highway. I know where im tryna go. I just dont know where all the people around me are headed, or if they are even paying attention and see me. 

I can either slow down and make sure they know where I'm going, or I can speed up and hope I dont crash. I am usually the cautious type.  Lately though, I have been far more reckless. Merging blindly and holding the accelerator. Making up for lost time i spent waiting for my chance to merge.

But right now, at this moment, its 5:15pm and i am getting on 635 in Dallas. Traffic is fucked up. No ones looking over, and if they do they speeding up to make sure they are ahead of me. And im not even sure i am going in the right direction. Seems like the faster i go the further i get from my destination, but if i wait i won't get there any sooner. Maybe i should switch directions or take the side road, avoid all the traffic and find a new way to the place i want to be?

It's either that or press the gas raise the finger between my index and ring, and cause a wreck.