i gotta gotta go

I kinda like it here, im pretty comfortable. Hell i have been here most of my life. Really all of my life. No matter how much i like it though, i have got to go. Its an impossible place. full of people like me, under motivated under achievers with loads of talent, but most of them think they cant make it here. They may be right, i mean they cant make it here because they dont think they can so they dont try, but with so many people with that feeling it sucks the life out of you.

I think i am fairly good at taking pictures and making people look good but i can barely find anyone to shoot that i want to shoot, they always seem to be bored but have to much to do. Then there are the ones who ask to set up shoots all the time then cancel the day of, some of whom i really could take or leave but i let them get away with it because i dont have anyone else showing up. So maybe it is time to go to hell, maybe i do need to go to dallas. Seems to be alot more people atleast trying to do something.

You ever stepped in dog shit?

I did not to long ago, it was a horrible experience. I saw the heaping pile of butt mud and did my best to step past it, but somehow I just ended up stepping in a even larger mountain of manure. It was such a mesmerizing mound I was unable to think of what i should do next. I couldnt pull my foot out directly, i had to try to ease it out. That plan didnt work though, so i tried to take my shoe off and just leave it in the shit, but when i did it just got on my sock, and a lil on my jeans. And i am still trying to find my way out of the shit to this day.

The moral of this story is if you see shit, walk the other way.

damn it

All this time, all these years wasted. 

Fuck!!!!!!

I thought i knew what i wanted. I was pursuing it.

Now, it seems, it was all wrong. I really can't have one with out the other.

I should probably tell you what im talking about, huh?  Well, im talking bout fame and fortune. They can be acquired on a mutually exclusive basis in some fields, and not in others.  I am sure it would be possible for me to be rich and not be famous with what i do... but it seems like its going to be alot harder. Plus, I just realized popularity aint so bad. It feels good when people recognize you and say good things about you, The good is better than the bad, like the people saying negative shit about you when they have never met you lol (kinda like when i shoot some one for the first time last week and they say one of their friends, whom i didnt even know, said they shot with me and i had a crew of dudes at my house chilling watching, which is 100% bullshit cause i only have 3 male friends lol). But spending a little time in the real world recently, i noticed, money comes alot faster from people who know you, which i knew but never really experienced in a great quantity.

Anyways so i guess i gotta get famous, or at least more popular... guess ill be leaking that sex tape soon....

break up to make up

Have you ever been dumped? Like one of those this hurts me as much as it hurts you kind of break ups. You spend a few weeks trying to figure out what you are going to do with your life with out that special someone? Then ou get it together,and get everything headed in the right direction, you even find someone that you think can fill their position well and then they call you. They want to be back with you, they made the wrong decision but they didnt know it until you decided everything will be ok with out them.

This didnt happen to me but its happening to the Green Bay Packers as we speak, guess we will see how it plays out.

on a side not im over jay-z
i can take any more poorly crafted word play from the self proclaimed then co signed best rapper.
The remix verses to "a mill"i and "put on" just grind my gears they are the icing on my hate cake that was baked by kingdom come.

i figured it all out

I finally figured out the problem that plagued all mankind since adam ate eves apple. Thats right i have solved the unsolvable.

Women are crazy.
Men aint shit.

Its pretty simple. All women are crazy and all men are worthless bastards.
This isnt just generalities this is proven fact from many conversations with members of both sexes and years of research. It all boils down to the simple fact that its not a matter of finding someone who is compatible with your likes and lifestyle, its just that everyone of the opposite and same sex are unworthy and unfit to be with you.